Saturday, June 22, 2002

This is my last weekend in my favorite apartment ever, and that's not a slam to my former roommates and the places that we lived. I just really felt a connection to this old place, and I'll miss it.

So last night while Andrew was spending time with his mom who's in town, I enjoyed a quiet Friday night with Nikki. I talked on the phone a bit, made some lists of things-to-do, surfed the belly dancing sites, etc. About 9pm, I realized that I had never eaten so I decided to call in a take out order to my favorite middle eastern deli. Mmmmm. A fattoush salad & halloumi cheese, and I decided to try a side order of foule. Oh, and let's don't forget my burma dessert. YUM!

After picking up the food, I decided to get a six pack so I stopped at my favorite convenience store in the same shopping center. I got a parking space right in front, hopped out of the car, took about 3 steps, and................there *he* was. My most recent ex whom I haven't laid eyes on in 5 years and 2 months. He was inside the store shopping. My body went on autopilot cuz I don't remember even thinking about my next steps. I did a 360 and got right back in the car. It was then that I realized that my heart was racing and I was shaking. I moved the car across the parking lot and watched until he & some woman (probably his wife) came out the door.

Yep. It was him....and he looked like Grisly Adams. No lie. I mean, when I dated him, his hair was long, and he grew a beard at one point, but, holy cow, he was all hair last night. I watched them as they made their way down the sidewalk to the stairs and disappeared. Then, I went in the store and bought my 6 of my new favorite beer Blue Star and took myself on home.

Upon reflection, I know that my reaction was purely a "fight or flight" response. Well, baby, I flew!!!! Man, he is #2 on my list of never want to see you again. It wasn't that I looked bad last night either. I just don't care to exchange uncomfortable pleasantries with a man who BROKE MY HEART IN TWO while his wife stands by his side wondering who the heck I am. Ugh. Ugh.

Actually, I see it as sort of neat-o closure too. I mean, I'm done with him. I have been for about 2 years, but I find it sort of poetic that I finally see him after allllllllll this time, and I'm just getting ready to move in with a man who *does* love me & who *does* want to marry me & who *doesn't* mind meeting my family.

My dad was probably right. He'll "probably never amount to much".

Sunday, June 16, 2002

Hi! I'm Snad. Remember me??? :^)

Thanks to my trusty readers who check this site every day. ....even though I haven't written in almost a month! I'm still averaging only 3 hits per day so I'd better get on the stick if I don't want to lose my audience!!!

A lot has been going on lately, the biggest of which is Andrew & I are moving in 2 weeks. Yep. Snad is shacking up. We found a new, 2 bed/2 bath apt that should be able to accomodate us, our stuff, the ferrets, and a geriatric cat. Needless to say, there will have to be some adjustments for us all, but I know that Andrew & I are meant to be so it'll all work out. It has too, dammit.

Speaking of ferrets: of course, we miss our ferretgirl Serina terribly. Sometimes, I'll be just doing my thing and something will remind me of her, and I'll just break down crying. Well, that's grief, isn't it? Kicks you in the butt when you least expect it.

Our ferretboys have adjusted well, I think, to Serina's absence. They have grown very close, and their antics are a great source of entertainment for Andrew & I. In fact, Max just figured out how to get outta his cage so I gotta go.

More later...........