Monday, January 29, 2007

I went to my first bellydance workshop in a YEAR this past weekend, and it felt like coming home. I really enjoyed myself and learned a super cool choreo from Blue Moon Dance Company. If I want to, I can perform it with the rest of the workshop attendants on Feb 10 at the Blue Moon hafla. Right now, I'm not pushing myself to do anything; I'll just wait and see how I feel. Luna & I have planned to get together and practice in the meantime.

In other news, I've contacted a local cat shelter to pursue volunteering there. I quit the SPCA early last year when I started derby because it conflicted with practice time. I've really missed hanging with kitties.....lots of kitties. I'll be going to the new shelter this week for a tour & training. I'm really excited because it sounds like this shelter will offer me more hands on experience.

Meanwhile, I miss skating. I really do, and it saddens me that I never passed level one nor did I ever scrimmage. I did have a good time though, and I built up some killer leg muscles like I'd never had before. I've said it before, and I'll say it again. I wish that derby had been around when I was in my 20s....not that I don't think a 38/39 yo me couldn't ever do derby. Let's be honest.... I gave up on derby. However, I just feel like derby would have fit into my life better when I was younger, and the physical part wouldn't have been so challenging either. Oh, well.....I'll just have to be a derby queen in my next life.

Monday, January 01, 2007

2007.

I will be 40 years old this year, and my cat will turn 20. Weird.

It's hard to believe that a whole year has passed since I left my favorite job ever. Gone are the days of that comfortable job at which I excelled, among people that I knew well & mostly loved, and for a boss that I adored. A year ago, I was unemployed, and it took me nearly 2 mos to find a job. Strangely, I accepted a job as the sole accounts payable clerk for a small, but growing, company, and I had sworn after working at Hellhole Inc in 2000-2002 that I would NEVER do a/p again. Plus, the company is in Durham, and I said that I didn't want to fight 40 traffic after doing it for years in the '90s. Regardless, this job has turned out to be pretty damn good. I had my end of year review and got a glowing review and a huge bonus. I really like the people that I work with & for, and it feels more like a "work family" every day.

Shortly after 2006 started, I found derby and started skating with CRG on Feb 5th. I had some really good times, and I pushed myself harder physically than I ever have in my life. I was out to prove to myself that I could do it. I could be athletic again after sitting my fat ass at a desk all these years with light bellydancing on the side. Sadly, my life as a derby girl was short-lived. After many bitter disappointments and setbacks, my heart just wasn't in it any more. I still have to fight feeling like a failure for quitting, but I know every day that it was the right decision for me. And, I am forever grateful to those derby bitches who supported me & my decision and reminded me that, if I changed my mind, I could always come back and try out.

At the start of 2006, I finally became a vegetarian, after toying with the idea for years. It turned out to be a lot easier than I thought it would be. I acknowledged to myself and others that this choice was a personal one and not one that others could judge me for. Therefore, on occasion, I did eat meat last year, but only 3x. Once was the first week of January when I attempted to make a vegetarian version of a chicken dish and failed, once was a can of chicken soup when I had bronchitis, and once was a sausage that I impulsively ate with friends at the beach. Not bad for a first year. I don't miss meat at all really.

I have some goals for this year:

1) I want to reach a healthy weight by the time that I turn 40 in November. Thanks to Weight Watchers, I know that it's possible.
2) I want to choose to use more cruelty-free products. It's going to take some research to determine which companies do NOT engage in / contribute to / benefit from animal testing.
3) I want for Andrew & I to see a financial planner to help us get on track to buy a house in the next few years and to secure our future together is comfortable.

Just some thoughts that I've having today. Wishing you all a Happy New Year!